This time last year, I was Physically & Psychologically Wrecked after the DWP forced me to push aside my Entire December [2024] to write up my PIP Renewal. Except — It wasn’t even DUE for renewal until JULY 2025.
The A$$HATS wanted it back before 22nd December — a Sunday. To make sure they got it on time, had to pay for Track 24 to make sure they got it by 18th… And Royal Mail nearly screwed it up anyway, by almost missing the damned deadline despite paying the idiots enough to make sure they didn’t.
It took 10 DAYS to Get To Me. So a form that’s “supposed to” be done in a FOUR Week Period had to be Finished AND Sent in Just. Under. Two.
So… I was DONE. And relieved, cos it was at least THAT was Also DONE, now.
However, instead of that being The End… It was Only The Beginning. A Small Taste of the Hellscape that was to come over the Next 12 Months…
Now it’s December 31st 2025 and… STILL NO PIP Assessment or Decision. This is probably Week 54 since sending it off, now. So, literally All Of That ANUISH, PAIN & DEBILITATION was ABSOLUTELY FOR NOTHING. ACES….
I spent these ENTIRE 12 MONTHS being RIPPED To SHREDS by the NHS Decimating Me In One Way Or Another. Causing PERMANENT DAMAGE, this time… Because I’m not quite sure I’m coming out of this at all. Another WRECKAGE of a “New Normal”… Going into another year with even less than the last one. AGAIN.
I can’t understand…. and don’t know how I could ever understand… how these “Services” have SO Much CONTROL and SO Much AGENCY over EVERYONE — BUT Especially Those Who Are Vulnerable.
None of what happened over the past 12 months was Necessary. PAIN and EXHAUSTION were Forced on me, but none of what I was made to do was was even REQUIRED.
The DWP forced me to Destroy my own Yule and Christmas Last Year, because they MADE me fill out their PIP Renewal “Form”. [I sent them a… Book. They’re probably STILL trying to read it — It’s got BIG Words, and Everything…]. Wasn’t even DUE for another 7 MONTHS. STILL Pending after 12 MONTHS — USELESS.
This Year… Between at least 4 or 5 Different NHS Sectors/Clinics/Areas (whatever), I was then left First Burnt Out, Secondly Broken & Shattered, and Eventually — over Yule and Christmas AGAIN — Decimated & DESTROYED. And NONE of it was REQUIRED to be DONE in the Manner It was done.
The NHS didn’t have to or need to Annihilate Me, like they did. Before that, The DWP didn’t need to break me down like they did, either.
So… I’m Just At A LOSS trying to even imagine 2026 being even REMOTELY… Bearable. Let alone Acceptable, “Meh”, or even “OK-ish”…
Whatever Self-Confidence I had has been Crippled into EXTINCTION… Again. Left feeling like a child, where all the “Grownups” are always mean to me, belittle me, tell me I’m dumb, and then tell me what to do — which is basically to “Go Away And Stop Bothering Everyone with your Nonsense”.
Very Unfortunate…Because that IS what happened when I was a child — and now I’m reduced to feeling it all again, because of people’s nasty attitudes towards people who are Disabled & Vulnerable. Funnily enough, I don’t appreciate it. [Everyone Gasp in Shock Overdramatically].
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