Down  The Rabbit Hole
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I'm a Disabled Person who Can't Work.The thing is -- I used to.

This sudden attack on Disability Benefits,PIP (not even a work-related benefit, to boot, “Sir” Starmer Bellend), on Disabled People, on Disabled People being a “drain on the economy and society” rhetoric, and the vitriol from the government and public… It’s destroying what VERY Little self-care, self-respect, I might have had for the person I have become.

So. I just got the letter from The Specialist Neurologist from the Hospital Officially CONFIRMING I Have FND.... Functional Neurological Disorder.

HARD Night and BAD Morning.... EXTREME BUZZING. BAD Eyes. EXCRUCIATING PAIN. Dizziness & Nausea. Disoriented & Disassociated.

And Calling it “Welfare” is one HELL of a Joke - because they care an absolute TOSS about your “Welfare”, and NONE of it Benefits You. Instead, it’s Shameful, Sickening, Humiliating, Debilitating... DEMEANING.

It's not  fault we were told lies about how "Crazy" we were, back when, instead of properly diagnosed. Living with the Stigma and backlash of being labelled with Severe Psychological/Mental Health Illnesses meant we missed out on being properly diagnosed and having a semi-decent life - instead of harrowing torment & CPTSD.

This morning has been UTTERLY AWFUL - COLD, BEING ILL, FIBRO-FLAREUP, MEGA BURNOUT SINKING RIGHT INTO MY SOUL AND MY BONES, PARESTHESIA... JUST ANOTHER HORRIBLE DAY OF HELL....

It's 1039mb now, FFS...!?! No Wonder I feel like I'm trapped in an static ball with electrifying hedgehog Spikes Attached and On +10,000......