Down  The Rabbit Hole
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These New Heatwaves are Bad For Everyone, yeh... But what I've been finding is basically NOTHING in the Media discussing how it affects those with SEVERE Chronic Illness... Because it's ANNHILATING.

Chronic Pain, Chronic Illnesses, Disabilities... Their Absolute Domnination over your life - every single part of your exiostence - Completely, irrevicably, constantly destroy my Autistic Brain every single moment of every single day. I once thought living in an NT world whilst masking to avoid as much "Detection" [of the Bullyable Strange] was the hardest world to manage to live in.

The World As I Now Know It...

By this time, after DECADES of having it done to me… I YET -- STILL -- CANNOT Understand why Medical Professionals make it some kind of… What?…. Blood Sport? … Some Intergrated,Target-Driven Professional Requirement? … Sociopathic or Sadistical Personal Whim on Vulnerable People…??

So… Sir Knobend Starmer and his cronies are apparently so entrenched in their Ableist Landfill of Lies, they believe that having an “extra £400 per month” in Universal Credit makes ALL Disabled People “inherently lazy” and “incentivises” us to “Not Work”.

Currently in a state of Internal Catatonia… Run dry by the “politics” of the NHS…. and of being controlled by Everything But Myself — despite constant and varied BIG Efforts Upon Efforts of trying to make it otherwise… there seems to be nothing I am able to do to control the constantly failing body that I have, or what other people insist on doing despite everything from asking nicely to outright Demanding otherwise.

How is it that the NHS has got it SO Bad WRONG, that even things I DESPERATELY NEED to have checked out now — because they’re REALLY Getting Worse, and... Well. Just a little bit Super Concerning — are getting totally, pathologically Ignored by Me now...??

There is ONLY CHAOS inside my head. Around me. Inside Me.