Down  The Rabbit Hole
~ BLOG ~

There is ONLY CHAOS inside my head. Around me. Inside Me.

It’s YULE. The Longest Night. The Darkest Time… To be followed by the growing light and hope for the Springtime. For me… It’s Just The Darkest Times & The Darkest Night, full stop.

I’ve been pushed from PILLAR TO POST by the Health & Social Care System This ENTIRE YEAR… Mainly by the NHS, though. Forced into demanded & non-negotiated pre-booked appointments, all over EVERYWHERE. We’ve even had to go to & pay for a hotel — including a 2nd room for my mother to drive & accompany — for a few days recently, to cover TWO in a hospital too far to make in a day and back (that one time went horribly wrong, and… NEVER again)… and at DIFFICULT Times.

They keep saying that “The NHS is broken”… But I find more than anything else, it’s The NHS People inside it, that seem to be more “broken” than the system.

I’m not just Spoons Bankrupt… I am Spoons Derelict. Left a Ruin of what once was. Made All The Worse by the past Six Months ALONE. The 12 years before that were horrendous, and Catastrophic. But in 2024 I was starting to actually Recuperate.

It seems that the NHS, Social Services, Government Depts... ALL seem to think THEY have THE Ultimate CONTROL Over You, as a Disabled Person. They ALL clearly believe THEY are ENTITLED to IMPOSE themselves on you, whenever THEY want to - and ENTIRELY Expect You To...  Just. Go. With. It.