This morning I could barely move. I barely slept - last night was RIDICULOUSLY AWUL - and was unable to wake up properly today...I am NOT OK with what is happening here - and it makes me feel SO MUCH WORSE that it IS SO DIFFICULT for me to manage -- because "ALL" I had to do was go downstairs and wait for a delivery person to turn up;.
My new ASUS Router was "supposed" to come yesterday - but apparently UPS doesn't count Sundays as an acual, relative day, so I had ot wait an EXTRA Day for it - and from now on, I am ALWAYS checking what day it is before I spend £7.99 on "1-2 WORKING days' Delivery".
So, here we are.... The email for delivery today simply said, "Delivery By 14:00" .... BY ... 14:00..... MEANING it would be anywhere from 09:01 to 13:59.... Oh. Yey.
AND Of Course...........It Requires A REAL Signature.
OK .... That wouldn't be much of a problem IF.... BOTH MAM & DAD (HOW do these things HAPPEN!!???!) didn't have medical appointments AT THE SAME TIME IN DIFFERENT PLACES......[!!!] - But They Do. Dad is getting bloods taken for a blood test he's waited WEEKS for at 12pm at the surgery. Mam now has an X-Ray Appt at the Hospital at 12:10pm ....WHY DO THEY ALL HAVE TO TO HAPPEN TODAY??
Both planned on leaving about 11:30am, and might be back anywhere between 12:30pm and 1pm -- IF I was LUCKY...... Meaning only One This.... That I'd have to GO DOWNSTAIRS during that time .... in case the ASSHATS Turn Up Somewhere Around Then... FFS.(!!)
I eventually managed to get downstairs and "settled" in the Living Room now, sitting at my favourite litlte table.... Everyone left a short time later. And if felt as if I'd been left in a Tiger's Den -- because I knew there was there was going to be a very REAL possibility that I might have to open the door to a STRANGER and sort out getting my Router off him..... and facing down the most angry and feral tiger, in the most stinking mood was going to be nowhere near as TERRIFYING as even CONTIPLATING THAT.
Talking and probably Signing Something.
As utterly SHIT and DVESTATING it all was..... STUPID COVID had some MAJOR Plus Points to it.
Downstairs, in Kushtie,
It's not as easy using Kushtie as it used to be.... Wheeling causes Paresthesia Pain like never before now. It's Awful because I LOVE my Kushtie.
The Tendon is starting up again. And I wish I'd brought down a wooly-like shrug instead of the black Sleeves one......
I wish Downstairs was as OK as it once was.... I'm not even afraid of the Hearth anymore, where I thought I was going to die. I wonder if I had infections then too... Because that's not a normal thing to feel - and it's never happened to me again, no matter HOW ill I've ever been.
Never, not since the Ococcuses thing ended. Maybe having enough fight and IV antibiotics to eliminate two forms of Septicaemia [blood poisoning] as well as Sepsis [BAD, out of control infection/s], as well as possibly down a small elephant, was enough to kick other things to the curb as well...
I've had a kinda Similar thing but that happens after I've aspirated and my body is trying to tell me it's there - and that's really a threat of an infection, too, really......
Anyway.... So... I have No REAL reason to NOT like being downstairs, technically, anymore. Except, it's not the point... Because it's now simply Physical.
I have neither the Grace or Ability to drive Kushtie well, anymore. I feel big an awkward in it, and exceptionally clumsy.
Metaphorically ran back upstairs cos I couldn't stay downstairs .... Around 12.35pm.....TOO TOO SCARED TO STAY THERE -— IT WAS AWFUL
FORGOT COMPLETELY ABOUT ORGANISING MEDS AND NOW THEY'RE MEGA LATE......!!!!!ðŸ˜ðŸ¤¬ðŸ˜
Struggling to MOVE or BREATHE.
BARELY MADE IT UPSTAIRS - IT JUST ABOUT HALF way KILLED ME AND IT WAD PETRIFYING....
WAS HALFWAY UP AND STRUGGLING TO MOVE AT ALL.... !!!!! AND BARELY MANAGED TO GET THAT FAR IN THE FIRST PLACE......!!!!!ðŸ˜
DOES EVERYTHING NICE OR GOOD FOR ME HAVE TO HAVE OR BE A TRAUMATIC EXPERIENCE??!?!! 🤬🤬🤬ðŸ˜ðŸ˜ðŸ˜ðŸ˜ðŸ˜
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