Nothing. Again. Except take Meds. And had MEGA Overwhelming Bladder/Bowel Spasms... Wanted to Try and at least Play Some Mass Effect Game... But. No.
Days Just Vanish... Then Suddenly its Dinnertime - and Everything After That Is Thrown Into MAJOR Disarray & CHAOS.... Meaning That's It -- The Beginning of the End of My Day, Already.
... Didn't manage to do website work. Or Writing Work. Or FanFic Reading. Or Anything.
Well.... I Posted a Blog -- That I wrote YESTERDAY.
I am also SO REALLY DONE with my days not starting till after 4pm.......
However, so far, all my attempts and ideas at doing something different - thought out different things - have tried and failed... which I don't really understand.
I am Seriously At A Loss. I'm SO Done and ... depressed? dragon? HUGELY Overwhelmed...? I don't know... I'm upset of some kind, and it's making me want to eat my own arm......
So. Not Great.
-But --
It never used to be Quite Like This.
Bits and Bobs of Raining UTTER Bollocks CHAOS - but only in blobs in time... But not 24/7/365 ... for Years. Never So... Brutally ... RELENTLESSLY...
There was always some space between all the Crazy. But now.... This Shit Is CONSTANT.
And Gods ....!!! --
I STILL Need To Finish Writing up The BS CRAP From Thursday ... Re: the Hospital.Except, I can't ...
... Because I have a Panic Attack every time I either Think about it or Do It.
... So... That makes it a DAMNED PAIN IN THE ASS to try and write it up... (!!)
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