Time is a melted, thick & syrupy thing --- Yet beneath it is ALL CHAOS and Pain &Traumatic Upsets that run and rush through the background and destroy or disintegrate any thinking or actions that is attempted over and above it, while it runs amok throughout everything you're trying to manage...
Time is Never, Ever Still ... It Dissolves & Reappears - always ahead, always having lost hours...
Brain is totally Disengaged. It Cannot latch onto... Anything. I have every Intention of doing something -- But Consciousness Just Simply Dissolves and Disintegrates into the Ether and nothing gets done. Time No Longer Exists, until it somehow, somewhere comes back online at Some Point In Time.
Often Hours after Consciousness was last tethered somewhere into Reality.
I Keep Zoning In & Out... I haven't any clue about getting any real Purchase on anything, anywhere - no matter what, it melts away into Nothing and The Days Are Gone Without Anything But BlackOuts & ZoneOuts to show for it...
It is DISASTROUS. And it is Soul-Destroying. Instead of managing... Something... I manage Nothing. Have absolutely Nothinkg to show for my Entire Existence. Tonight, again, I wanted to play Mass Effect... And Instead I "Come To" about TWO HOURS LATER and realise I am almost AN HOUR Late for Taking my meds, as well as having done absolutely NOTHING with my time...
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