It seems that the NHS, Social Services, Government Depts... ALL seem to think THEY have THE Ultimate CONTROL Over You, as a Disabled Person. They ALL clearly believe THEY are ENTITLED to IMPOSE themselves on you, whenever THEY want to - and ENTIRELY Expect You To... Just. Go. With. It.
Like A Subservient Slave.
...Or A Prisoner.
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Once again, I am reminded about how Health/Medical/Social & Psychological Care “Professionals” seem to be UTTERLY CONVINCED that THEY [and THEY ALONE] have COMPLETE AUTONOMY OVER — & OWN — Your Time…
There’s always a demanding letter or phone call — you will come here [X Place] at <X Time>… Found out just recently if you have to reschedule an appointment with a hospital department More Than THREE Times, you got Kicked Off Their Books (no ifs or buts…!)… Apparently suffering for SIX WEEKS [and counting] from a SEVERE Post-Operative Infection that was Antibiotics Resistant, which made you VERY REALLY ILL, ISN’T A Good Enough Reason.
Go Figure That One.
EACH separate one acts like they’re TOTALLY ENTITLED BASTARDS — and seem to be ENTIRELY under the impression that they can — and should — do what they want — however THEY want it. And if you don’t comply? — They Will Always PUNISH You in SOME Way… Can’t make that date? You’re off our books. You don’t want to see us? Oh we’re going to have to refer you to the —[whatever higher echelons those specific minions have that they feel they could, and should, Threaten You With].
They’re Impositioning and Imposing.
So.. An email & letter comes in: “We WILL be coming to your home at nth of X@Time to see you for XYZ…” [Social Type Professionals this time]
This time I decided to answer the email… Except it takes DAYS to write it, in the STATE that I am in.
It doesn’t end up being Quite In Time…
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An Unsolicited & Unrecognised Phone Call Pierces the Quiet Calm. You ignore it… It Phones You RIGHT BACK.
Oh, and it’s ** 7:30AM **
… and you only JUST about managed to fall asleep around 5AM….
… You go and think — Oh Shit!— it must be important? What if it’s about my sister or nieces…???
You answer… And the other end just goes, “Hello? I’ve been trying to get hold of you but had no answer from the email I sent. We want to come to your house…. etc etc” [as above… as. in. THEM.].
My Brain: — ….. WTAF…..????…!! It’s Tuesday Morning (barely) & they only sent it on FRIDAY… I only READ it Sunday…?!
I am an Autistic Person. Phone Calls have LONG been Traumatic. UNSOLICITED phone calls are EVEN MORE so… JUST as much as when people turning up to the HOUSE.
If they’d had ANY chance before then, they’d screwed themselves over now. There was NO WAY I was TRUSTING People like THIS with ANYTHING. Certainly not such Personal Anything! It’s an IMPORTANT, TRUSTING JOB — WHY can’t they be actual SAFE people?
… WHY Can’t NICE & SAFE people EVER be the ones to be hired???
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So… Back to the Original Point— What On EARTH in ANY GOD’S GIVEN NAME made them THINK they had ANY Right to IMPINGE & IMPOSE THEMSELVES On Me — — with an ENTITLED & IMPOSITIONING 7:30am PHONE CALL…
In Behaviour ALONE, A Forceful, Demanding phone call, to DEMAND that they come to my home and that I SEE Them, and when THEY Said THEY Wanted To Be SEEN… It was all I could do to tell then I’d get back to them, before my mouth went OFF.
….It would NOT have been a good half-hour for them whilst I ripped their brains out of their ears…
There’s NO Care for any LIFE you have — other Appointments, commitments, exhaustion, MASSIVELY OVER-DONE AUTISTIC BURNOUT…
No Care that we are currently TOO ILL, Too Overwhelmed, FAR FAR TOO Overwrought & EXHAUSTED to have… YET. ANOTHER. Fk’N. APPOINTMENT… WITH. ONE. MORE F’n. OVER-ENTITLED DEPARTMENT.
I don’t understand WHAT makes people think that when they get such Important Jobs, they can — even should — Power Trip their way into your Space, Your Life, in an Imposing, Forceful & Threatening Manner.
When someone terrifying with a gun is terrorising people, the police come and STOP them; they take them AWAY. If these people inflect the SAME Terror onto You… Usually other people & Agencies AGREE with THEM and NOT You.
It’s Diminutive AND Demeaning.
I’ve spent the Rest Of My Day SHAKING… Going between FURIOUS & INSULTED… and TERRIFED, PETRIFIED & OVERWHELMINGLY INTIMIDATED…
I wrote an email to them… Basically told them off, lectured them about all the above — and explained as to why I was like this, and how their behaviour was Traumatising me and making Everything A LOT WORSE. Especially about how Phone Calls FREAKED Me Out.
It takes me SIX HOURS to write it.; it was AWFUL to make myself do that.
I ended the email by telling the to EMAIL me in return.
… Only THEN to be CALLED at 5:55pm. BY THEM.
… … … ….
~ THERE. ARE. NO. WORDS. ~#
… ENTITLED BASTARDS.
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