SUMMER SOLSTICE ~ And the FIRST Time in a while I haven't felt the air was "too thin".... (?) It's 1013mb, with no heavy weather lying around, even though the Pollen is still very high, too..
Ironically, my SP0² Came back 93%...
Cos apparently I always have be ironically contrary.
Still feel drastically unwell, otherwise. Autistic Breakdown or Complete Fibro{plegia} Overload, I'm not sure, though.
Maybe one contributing to the other and back...?
Yeh. And Maybe Hitler Was “A Naughty Boy”.
Ha...!
...Guess what — We can all make hideously drastic understatements sometimes.
Been trying to do... Anything. And Nothing... As always. I don't even know WHY it's like that — not really. The days Just Simply Vanish. Nighttime seems to be the only time I can do anything — but by then I'm too wound up to really manag it, too... So, still, nothing, or very little, gets actually done.
Been trying to make new websites for Eirianlys Music because the Wix one has, basically gone crazy in the backend. I'd have had them both done in hours at one time. Even Quite Recently. Maybe day or two at most. Right now, instead, they're just dragging on and on, and not getting much of anywhere very quickly whatsoever.
It's really not going anywhere near what's needed - and this is despite having "all the time in the world" - which, fundamentally, would technically be true - if other things weren't busy eating up my life as well/instead.
BlackOuts & ZoneOuts are most of the reasons nothing gets done; they can account for early double-digits of hours lost per day, on some days. Then there is PAIN, Exhaustion & Fatigue, Brain Fog / Fibro Fog (very different to ZoneOuts), Dizziness / Vestibular Migraine and {general} Headaches.
It Doesn't Fucking CARE it's Summer Solstice or Yule, my Birthday or Beltane....
Bottom Line is that no matter WHAT the Day, The Celebration, The Significance... This Physical Hellhole is what Demands, Dictates, Destroys...
And causes Great Big Dragons of Disappointment.
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