Had Bad Dreams... Not Quite full on Nightmares... I went off till 12pm meds alarm 😕 Been trying to stay up since... Feeling Hazy and zoning... Also got new headphones to play Shep with... and they're downstairs doing nothing cos I can't go and get them and they turned up about 10 mins after dad left ...😭😭😭😶😕😡😒🧐🤦♀️🤷♀️😖
....GAAAAAAHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!
Might at least try and play Shep [Mass Effect 2] anyway...
... BUT I AM SO SERIOUSLY PISSED my headphones came nice and early for once AND I CAN'T EVEN GET THEM & USE THEM....!!!!!
FUCKING STINKS that I CAN'T MANAGE TO GET go downstairs... and if there was ANYTHING that would make me GO downstairs if at all possible was THIS! -- However... That doesn't include Souly being a Dope & me having to go and Rescue Him, because being a Doggy Momee is bigger than EVERYTHING.
NOT been well today or yesterday at ALL... Not Even Been Able To Drink My Usual Coffees...
Even tried to do makeup -- for the first time in forever... Today And Yesterday... BUT [*scowl*] -- naturally, the makeup bag I always keep falling over is NOWHERE TO BE SEEN... So I'm not even able to get much more done than the basics... It's Absolutely Exhausting...
Doesn't help it feels like I'm WAY TOO OVERWHELMED by feeling UTTERLY HELPLESS, UTTERLY HOPELESS & UTTERLY UNHELPABLE... feeling like I'm going to be Devoured by the damned LANDFILL that is next to me... More So because it means I am being METAPHORICALLY Destroyed by it, as well...
... Even More Wider DESTRUCTION, DISABLING, IT'S ANOTHER STARK REMINDER of what I am... Or What I am NOT...
I have NO Puff for it. No Puff to fix it, or make it go away. Not even ANY Puff to Fix The Bin -- and so it just... Overflows and makes me FEEL SICK TO MY STOMACH - -- because instead of FIXING IT (or preventing it, like a Normal Person) I can LITERALLY DO NOTHING about it, because I LITERALLY Cannot Move.
-- Distressed, Horrified, Disturbed, Frightened, Resentful, Stressed, Troubled...
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