Now Just Feeling OVERWHELMED by SHATTERED EXHAUSTION... Can't think... It's all lightening flashes & thick fog - and feeling like I am Drowning...
As ALWAYS -- Doing Something "NOW" is so EXHAUSTING in ITSELF... it's almost Laughable... Where are the SPOONS supposed to APPEAR from NOWHERE to allow me to actually DO... ANYTHING??!!???!!!
Hands too shakey and weak to be complient...
and only now able to get myself [forced] out of bed to try and manage on the floor....
Hate this a LOT.
.., WEAK & VULNERABLE... SO TIRED... BEYOND EXHAUSTED....
There's NO Spoons For Body and UTTERLY ZERO Spoons for BRAIN... #
Maths is SIMPLE: --> 0+0= ....????
.... YEH.
..... ZERO.
BAD HEADACHE... BUZZING & VIBRATING... LIGHTHEADED & DIZZY ...
EYES BURNING WITH SANDPAPER...
...HANDS SHAKING. & WEAK ...
HYPER-ANXIOUS....
HYPER ON EDGE ...
FEELING BREATHLESS....
ALL-Night.... THREE MAJORLY INSANE STORYLINE NIGHTMARE... DREAM-MARES.... Whatever...
Am In A Fucking MESS.... WRECKED inside and out...(!!!!)
Pain of Buzzing & Vibrating is
EXHAUSTING & EXCRUTIATING
.... Came Round AGAIN from Blackout - Momee woke me from ANOTHER ONE....
I've been awake since, but the PAIN, Paresthesia, has been TOO OVERWHELMING...
Even Tisserand Oil Can only do So Much to help...
Have to now try and get trogh at least Some food now -- my usual: Toasties, Party Sausage Rolls, BBQ Skewers & Skinny Chips/McDonald's style Fries ....
Getting into bed now... it's an Even More PAINFUL HORROR to go through as part of... Existing...(!)
Literally TOO EXHAUSTED FROM GETTING INTO BED to Do ANYHTING Else....(!!!!!!)
It's JUST GETTING BEYOND ABSURD.
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